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Have I mentioned that I've discovered I have subcutaneous fat? For the first time in my life, I've managed to have a healthy insulation layer. I am very chuffed about it, but in my pre-menstrual state, it is just starting to annoy me... I wanted to wear my leather pants to Beltaine on Saturday, but I discovered that in the four years since I wore them last, I've actually changed shape...
Having been chronically underweight all my life, being normal (for once) comes as a shock and a relief. I think it may have something to do with the lack of mental-environment induced stress. I'm happy, and happy to be so. Not constantly stressed or running (mentally and physically) in fear. I'm getting the people around me trained to give positive or positively-phrased constructive feedback instead of negative or negatively-phrased feedback, or no feedback (which I'm training myself not to interpret as negative feedback). This gives me benchmarks and lets me know that what I'm doing is OK instead of fearing that it's not good enough because I never hear anything positive.
Bedtime I think. I'm starting to mumble again.
Having been chronically underweight all my life, being normal (for once) comes as a shock and a relief. I think it may have something to do with the lack of mental-environment induced stress. I'm happy, and happy to be so. Not constantly stressed or running (mentally and physically) in fear. I'm getting the people around me trained to give positive or positively-phrased constructive feedback instead of negative or negatively-phrased feedback, or no feedback (which I'm training myself not to interpret as negative feedback). This gives me benchmarks and lets me know that what I'm doing is OK instead of fearing that it's not good enough because I never hear anything positive.
Bedtime I think. I'm starting to mumble again.
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